Hating women on stream

I'm member of alot of groups on facebook, like twitchgroups you could say. The idea is that you can share your stream there and get more viewers, just that. People have their own ideas of how to get viewers. Some record a short clip, some have a fun picture and so on.
But atleast once a week there is someone who claims that person x needs to be removed from this group, and the shitstorm starts. The reason? Well the girl that sits playing is not covering herself up. 
I really dont get it. We are not sitting in a church, we are not living in 1950. Its 2016 and people are so damn angry because someone shows skin. "Anyone not just focusing on the game should be banned" someone claims. And then adds that "His humor" gave him a number of followers the other day - how humor is a part of the game i really dont know.
It's clear that at times i get viewers because of my beard - some of them stay forever and some of them leave the moment they see something else which is'nt good in the stream. Should i cover up my beard then? I mean its really not a part of the game - its just a part of me .But not everyone has one? Noone ever told me to cover up my beard.
"Well showing boobs are like selling sex" is the other claim. The thing is, boobs real job is to give food to kids. Thats the only job and the only normal connection that boobs has to anything else then just beeing boobs, if you find them sexy, or beards sexy, i really cant controll it. But your idea of what is sexy or not cant really be the reason for why a girl should cover up. Or hey, maybe she even wants to show more cleavage then you think is legit - i dont fucking care. Streamingservices are a modern thing - the fact that people should be able to dress in whatever fashion they prefer is, atleast for me, completely obvious.

Streaming is only a part game - if you dont understand that then we need to make that clear first. Streaming is about entertaining people. You can do that by beeing funny, good looking, good at the game, really bad at the game, having fun things around. It doesnt really matter as long as you feel good about yourself you can do anything. Undress and take a bath in the snow can be an extremely good way of getting viewers. Its really up to you. And as a viewer if you dont find a stream good enough, you just click urself out of there. It's easy.

If you also feel like other streams takes your viewers or better streamers viewers i can assure you. It's because you are bad at entertaining. And it really does NOT give you the right to call out people hoes or bitches, you are talking about another human beeing. And i sincerely hope that people talking like that get banned in twitch-chats, in socialmedia and not get their shitty attitudes shared. Girls rocks. Show your rack, dont show your rack, i really dont care. But keep on rocking girl. This is as much your world as anyone elses. 

Valentine's Day!

My better half

Let me tell you about the reason that i can do what i do, and the reason why i feel happy when i go to bed at night.  Marit, my wife and best friend in the whole world.

I got impressed by Marit from the beginning because of her looks, i admit it. I met her at Komvux, adult education 11 years ago. She had a green shirt and long hair at that time. Tons of freckles, and she was late to class which made it easier to not miss her. I thought she seemed like trouble tho, so i did'nt really care to much for her. I mean i did, but i tried to not. And we became friends. I made her food the very first day we met. Its important to make a good impression i guess. Which she did with me.

When Marit met my mum for the first time my mum told me that she was to fancy for me. And that was my feeling to in the beginning. Beeing to fancy might sound like a good thing, but where i come from that pretty much means you are to uptight and selfcentered. However my mums and Marits love grew for eachother over time, and in the end my mum said she felt good leaving her son to such a good woman. 

Thats a big deal.

I think whenever Marit made her first meatloaf to me was the first time i really fell for her. I mean she was all that and still a farmersdaughter in some way. She hunts moose. She can stand on her knees and clean the floor, but she can still dress up for a party looking absolutely stunning. Way out of my league. That kind of dynamic is hard to find anyway. 

Alot of people have asked me how we can manage to solve our lifes around gaming as we do, and i have to admit its still hard to believe, sometimes i work to much .There is no doubt. Im about to become better. But Marit is without any doubt the glue that keeps this family together. Her love, and her planning, her way. 

She teaches our kids everything regarding nature from hunting, skiing, snowboarding, berrypicking, anything. She gives them and me a big important perspective of life - the wildlife. And shes just the most handsome person there is. She never backs down if she thinks shes right, she wont let anyone walk over her. 
Hey, she pretty much is best at everything where there is no computer near. Because shes not a gamer at all. Shes awful at gaming. She always calls for me if the internet is down or if she cant manage to startup netflix on the TV. But thats a good thing. Thats nothing compared to when she gave birth 8th januari and then the 20th of februari she took wood and the kid in a sled behind her going skiing in the mountains. Why i didnt take the sled? Because i would fall and it would be much to big of a risk. :-)


So todays blogpost is, as you might have already realised, dedicated to my wife. My best friend in the whole world. My valentine. 

Lite personligt!

Först, om du vill raljera eller vara ett rövhål angående detta så hoppas jag dig förevig djävulskap resten av ditt liv. Sen är det inte frågan om att du ska tycka synd om mig. Jag vill bara förklara varför jag inte är helt normal just nu. Det blir bättre. 
Jag käkar mediciner för mitt mående. Det har jag gjort i fem års tid nu, och det fungerar finfint. Jag växte upp i ett sisådär hem kan man väl säga. Vi hade hela och rena kläder men det skedde mycket skumt bakom kullisserna med allt från sprit till allt möjligt annat. Hur som helst så har jag mer eller mindre hela mitt vuxna liv lidit av svår svår ångest. Alltså inte "lite pirrigt att flyga flygplan" utan snarare "jag vågar inte stå upp" - jag har enligt min egen mening i alla fall stått på gränsen mellan dårhuset och inte. Jag kommer dock aldrig att hamna på dårhuset. Det är utrett.

Nu har i alla fall det blivit aktuellt att äta lite mer mediciner. jag äter små mängder oavsett men jag behöver öka på dosen. Anledningarna vet jag inte? Kanske stressar lite för mycket. Jobbar lite för mycket. Eller för att det är vintertid, inte fan vet jag. Jag måste det i alla fall och det är faktiskt ett rent helvete. Det tar ett par veckor, men sen blir det bra. Nu är jag på dag tre. Det är var det är och jag tänkte forstsätta att försöka knega på litegrand. Kommer inte orka varje cast, och kommer säkerligen att vara en riktig tråkmåns mellan varven.

Jag väljer att berätta det för det är många som har ångest och svårigheter runt det, och jag är inget undantag. 

Hursomhelst. Håll ut med mig.